Before i start my post, just wanted to say i've finally put up a short post on my design blog.
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How are you people doing? I'm doing good. I haven't did any proper update in a while, so here it goes. I feel a little more lonely for almost 3 days now. Why? My boyfriend is away for his field camp. He'll only be back probably this coming 21st (which also means he got to miss my 19th birthday, my trip to KL updates & also our 3 years 3 months of being together) That's just an estimation that i got from him.
I know, some might say, boyfriend? You feel lonely just because he's away? Your boyfriend is your everything!? Yes, to a certain extent he's my everything. This is the issue i've been facing for quite a while now.
Some say i prioritize my boyfriend too much that i forget my friends. The funny thing is that, the "some" that i am referring to, prioritize their boyfriends more than friends. How's that? No one really know what i'm facing. The person who has been there for me all these while ever since 2008, is my boyfriend. He's there for me. Friends? HA. They come and go. That was in the past (secondary school days. Sadly, i don't have awesome memories back then) I'm actually happy that i'm out of secondary school. But i don't deny i still treasure the friendship that i had with my fazzy sister (:
Other than that, nah, i'm being bullied, being teased and so on and so forth. Even the friend whom i thought could last till forever has forgotten about me. She only looks for me when her friends are not around. Just like the other time where she's bored and out of the blue she asked me out. Bitch, i'm not your toy. (Sorry for the harsh language)
I went through bad days back then. When it's 2008, i was in secondary 4, i met Ared who is my current boyfriend. He's been there for me, accepting me for who i am, accepting my family's condition, giving me support, puts a smile on my face, makes me laugh that i do get stomach cramps from it, wipe my tears away, makes me happy that at times i just had to let out happy tears, do stupid silly lame things with me, listen to my complains and whines and the list goes on.
I get tired looking for friends who i thought will be there for me during my tough times. Cause what happens? They were no where to be found. *poof* gone.
I've been with my boyfriend since i was in Secondary 4. I'm so thankful that the relationship lasted till now and if God willing till forever. During my tough times, he's there and i don't know how am i going to cope without having him around. He appeared back then, so i guess that could be a reason to why i prioritize him more than some of my friends. Seriously, if you're not in my situation and at the very least if you can't even understand my situation, keep your comments to yourself.
Those were the bad times. I guess it's true, that bad things happened for a reason. Cause then i met Ared and i learn to appreciate things in life so much better. I'm in a polytechnic now and i can't thank enough that i met a bunch of awesome people here. It's my second year now, so far so good. I'm having good-stable-awesome friendships with the people in Republic Polytechnic. I hope this could last even after graduation. Maybe because we're more mature in our thinking that we treat one another more like adults or should i say, respect (there are times where we're childish and lame which is normal). Hehe!
Prioritize change as time pass. No doubt i do prioritize my boyfriend more than friends now but that does not mean i won't be there for you as a friend. No, not like that. My prioritize change. It depends on how the situation is like. I love both my boyfriend and my friends. Before, saying that i have forgotten my friends, reflect back on yourself, isn't your boyfriend is the one who you prioritize the most now?
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